On the Job Hunt

One the Job Hunt

September 6, 2014

So I have been looking for a new job since the two Home Health agencies cannot find me any patients. I am really getting worried, cause I mean, I have bills like everyone else, and just cause they cannot find me any patients does not mean that I can just kick back and relax ya know. I saw a job posting for a Financial Lender with a small lending company in Lufkin I really thought was interesting, but I got an email from them this morning, saying the job was filling already. I was like man! So I am bugging the HR up at Elliott Electric Co to consider my resume for a Inventory Specialist, It looked like a good job, and a good company to work for too. I guess we will see. I have been praying for God to help me find a job, and I know he won't let me down. In the mean time, I am going to keep trying, I have nothing else to do. 

Repo day has come....in September

"Repo Day has come"

September 3, 2014

Repo Day has come.... My truck, "The Cowboy," is leaving me, all of a reason that I made bad choices lately as usually and was unable to pay my note. I am really depressed, and even though Mom has tried to make me feel better, I feel all the worse! I let myself down, my pride down, and my belief in myself that I could be financially responsible. I cannot describe the depth of sadness I feel right now. It may not be a brand new truck that is being taken from me, but the principle of the matter was that I finally had made my first full size truck purchase and was so proud of it, dents, dings, dash parts hanging, and all! It was a statement that I finally did it! Now it is all a memory for me to remember. I only had the truck for almost 6 months but it was nice while it lasted. Filling up the radiator with water to go across town every time I used it, and taking my trash up to the front of the street to be picked up, taking my weedeater, blower and stuff to mow my aunts yard, all fond ( weird on the first one because I could never afford to replace the radiator) memories. 

Life sucks the way it happens sometimes, but God's word does say, when he closed one door, he will open another. 

Goodbye Cowboy, it was fun and entertaining while it lasted


Kory 

Depressing Labor Day 2014

September 1, 2014

A Horrible depressing Labor Day

I don't know why I am starting another blog, I always loose interest or something happens in life and I never have enough time. Lets try again!

This is summer has been the worst besides 2011 where I was completely unemployed and it was hot as hell outside, and everything was dead, kind of how I feel now days. 

2011, WOW how much has changed since then, I don't have the same friend(s), and different physical, health, spiritual, and emotional setting now. I no longer have any friends for a few years now, booted the last guy as my "best friend" in 2012 for good, cause we just were not going to ever see eye to eye on the most crucial ordeals you need for a solid friendship. Anyways....

I have been in the worst depression possible lately, I am really thankful my Doctor prescribed me Ativan, it has really helped in my anxiety, and while they were prescribed for chronic headaches ( I have them many times a week most of my life) they have really really helped on my anxiety level, but my depression is getting worse. I think it is cause my pain in my back is getting worse. 

See, I have a back injury from back in the days when I worked offshore and then worked a few years delivering heavy furniture and appliances for Rent A Center, the result was 3 lumbar herniations and probable 1-3 upper herniations, haven't had an upper MRI yet. I refuse to go on disability cause I can still work RIGHT NOW, but my condition is getting worse, and the pain meds are getting weaker and weaker, and I am just sucombing to them for a fix all, and its NOT WORKING! I want to have back surgery and try for a better life, but without insurance or a large influx of income, that is not going to happen. 

I am trying so hard to be strong, but its not working either, I cry at various times of the day, because of the condition of my life, I get irritated easily cause of the pain, and have come to the place, where financially I am stressed out. I need help! It is only the help that God can give, but I guess I will have to keep praying, cause right now nothing is happening

Thats all I feel like writing now, 

Kory Russell